what it feels like for a fan

Those really bad eps of Buffy, you know? You know how you sometimes really need to watch them? Because (you're suddenly panicking) you haven't been watching them as often as the other eps and there might be something you've forgotten. Like Xander's spontaneous Angel appreciation moment in Teacher's Pet? Or, in Ted, the Freud dance? Or, in Some Assembly Required - yeah, what does SAR have, anyway? See? You've forgotten. And so you sit there and watch SAR, and go "Wow, this really is as bad as I remembered", and "Since I'm watching Buffy anyway, I could have just as well spent the time on The Pack or Lie To Me or Restless".

And yet you feel oddly satisfied. Accomplished.

Could this be the thing they call Love?